Lesbian Poetry

Bittersweet Tears

Written Feb/99...for a large piece of my heart

If only it had been,another place,another time,
If only it had been,
Before the tests were done,
Before the illness invaded her body,
If only we had met, before the storm blew in,
Perhaps we could have shared our love, our passion
Tests were done,
And the fire born was put out,
The tears fall from my eyes,
For now I am forced to realize,
That I can never make love, to my heart, my goddess,
My fantasy come true, my love, my soulmate,
Whom I've found just a little too late

To look into her beautiful brown eyes,
I realize, that in her is everything I've ever sought,
But I cannot hang on to her,
For God has proceeded to take her away,
Oh how it hurts, how my heart bleeds,
To look at her,
Knowing she loves me too,
Knowing she wants to stay.

This world, this life, can be so cruel, so cold,
Why does God need her more than I?
It took forever to find her, my sunshine,
Yet God's plan is to rip her from this life, from my heart, from this embrace of mine

This life, with all its hardships, wears me down,
My pillow is stained from tears I've cried,
Then she came along, made me realize that who I was okay, beside her, holding her always, is where i want to lie,
We fell in love, but now it's not to be..
Her dying is our reality,
I try so hard not to look at her and cry,
As the clouds darken our skies,
For our love affair can not be...
For then,....we both, will die.

Missing u always babygirl,
tracylyn