Lesbian Poetry

The Way Back

How dark do I let it get
When I can't see anything before me
And reasons for everything are beyond my reach
And life seems a series of losses
How far do I let this go
How do I change my thinking
How many words to write the pain away
How much time wasted
Feeling this stupid way
Patterns I have to break
Actions I have to take
Wasting my life being blue
Too much of it already slipped through
The good seems to fade out of focus
Dark thoughts bind and choke us
Questions that have no answers
Answers that have no questions
Time to get up and do something
Survival depends on it
Time to quit
Wallowing in self pitys pit!
I'll pull myself out
I always do
But why is it
That I still fall back in again?
What changes can I make
That will finally bring to me
Things that don't make me sad
Or feel bad
I'm tired of the life I've had
Too much of it spent being sad
I'll change it before it's gone
And find a lasting happiness
No matter how hard it will be
To change the ways of me