Lesbian Poetry

make believe

Feels like it will be my last poem I ever type
If I could it would be in blood I write
Can't say my heart is crushed, coz my heart doesn't exist
If you think that's hard, try reading this

With no one left, every back turned in my face
With no self-assurance and no guaranteed place
With no someone to hold on or someone to hug
With no someone to trust or someone to love

Can you put yourself in my seat for now?
Can you surely say, my God that's wow?
Would this be the dream of a little kid?
It's a nightmare, one that I don't need

I'm singing her a goodbye song, this is me confessing wrong!
This is my make believe, its not a fantasy
I don't like walking, I don't like you
I hate my reflection, and I hate school!
I don't like smiling, I don't like love
I hate your satisfaction of what I've done wrong!

Will you let me go or come running to my shadow?
Would you just turn your head or watch me through the window
Will you be missing, will you be crying
Will you just stand there, and watch me dying??